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life

I haven’t posted since May.  A lot has happened since then.  Some good and some bad.  My heart went into Afib in flutter and I had an ablation in September.  I have dropped fifty pounds and have developed a healthy diet.  I still deal with heart and digestive issues.  I usually see a different doctor every week.  I feel like I am a full time patient but let’s be honest:  I lived life in the fast lane and there is a high probability that all of this was self inflicted.

I’ve had a lot of time to think and reflect on who I am today and where I was in the past.  I moved fast.  I missed a lot.  I see it now and hope that it’s not too late.  I was caught up in things and situations that truly don’t matter.  The expensive jeans.  The VIP rooms.  The over the top dinners.  The list goes on.  You may feel important or satisfied at that moment but it’s only temporary.  In the end, there is no dinner, no rare bottle of wine or some flashy name brand that can provide you with what we should all truly be seeking:  a purpose.

I’m fifty five years old, an only child, divorced and no kids.  What is my purpose?  I’m not sure but I’m now motivated to find it.  Can you say the same?

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I quit taking prescribed xanax about thirty days ago.  My mind is focused and on fire.  I am blessed to see all that is wrong with this world and the future is bleak.  We are no longer a kind society.  Self entitlement and the “me first” attitude has taken root.  It is not too late to stop this serpent from continuing its devilish duty.  Censorship is all around us.  This site has been attacked by those that try to stifle my first amendment rights and do not want anyone to face the truth.  Our Constitution is under attack on a daily basis.  The left wants to increase Supreme Court Judges by tenfold and us to lower the voting age without bothering to address the ramifications by ignoring the Constitution.  This is a blatant attack on our forefathers.  So many people have adopted the “not my problem” attitude.  I disagree.  This is a moment of our battle cry.  This is a moment of stopping the evil.  This is a moment we cannot ignore.

My entire life I have been told to look the other way and to keep my mouth shut.  That time is over.  I will not sit by silently and let those with evil intentions to steamroll those that believe in respect and integrity and the American way.  Remember 911?  It was the last time this country was united.  We have become complacent once again.  We are a hanging fruit ready to be harvested.  More government is not the solution.  It is the source of the problem.  I believe in family and have strong faith in God.  I am not in this world to say what people want to hear.  I am blessed to be on this earth to stand up against sin and those that wish to spread evil.

It takes a small amount of effort to be kind.  Kindness does not recognize color or creed.  Be kind to your neighbor or stranger and witness how they are caught off guard by your generosity.  It’s further proof that what I say is true.  Together, with knowledge and prayer, we can make a difference.  I just hope it’s not too late.

no governmentKnowledge is power.  The more you learn the more you can protect yourself.  With the 2020 election looming, there has never been a time where lack of knowledge is threatening your rights as a citizen of this great country.

When the government becomes involved it historically leads to failure.  Look at Medicare, Social Security and the IRS as examples.  Simply stated:  less government means more freedom.  The IRS is a joke.  They need to be eliminated and a flat tax installed.  The more cooks in the kitchen only leads to chaos and confusion.

Those that are put in a position of power more often than not will fall victim to greed and that leads to corruption.  We see it every day in politics, law enforcement, government and the list goes on.  We need to stand up and take responsibility for our rights and freedom.  People will take advantage of you based on the fact that you don’t understand your rights.  Case in point:  nothing good ever comes from certified mail.  Do not ever sign for this and be aware of your rights.  Companies are constantly trying to steal your personal information.  Use the internet to benefit yourself and be aware that those that are corrupt will attempt to use the internet against you.

Critics will say I live a life in paranoia.  I can only respond to that based upon personal experience.  I have been used, lied to and taken advantage of in the past.  Those scars only build my knowledge and ability to not repeat previous mistakes.  There is a reason I chose to distance myself from people and the general society; true friends that have your best interests in mind are rare and you need to keep those people close.  Quality always will win over quantity.  I firmly believe that when this journey of live is over we will be judged upon our actions and decisions.  Are you ready for that day?

life

Life is strange…….at least mine is.  We all make mistakes but mistakes are how we learn.  I’ve made countless mistakes so I should be pretty smart but the only thing this proves is that I have a superfluous amount of mistakes yet to endure.   Having said this I thought I would share some of the lessons in life I have learned.

  • Never raise your voice to win an argument:  People that yell are frustrated and the secret to winning an argument is to frustrate your opponent into raising his/her voice.
  • Kindness cannot be taught you either practice it or just make the conscious decision to be an asshole.
  • Never date anyone that you meet at last call.
  • Money pays bills but it doesn’t create self-worth.
  • Experience a brush with death and you will figure out the meaning of life.
  • People will use the word “amazing” when it’s not truly “amazing.”
  • Drinking tequila leads to one of two things: getting into a fight or taking your clothes off.
  • People with a cross tattooed on their forehead do not work at NASA.
  • Never trust anyone that believes wrestling is real.
  • Whoever created bottled water or salad in a bag is a genius.

It took me many years to figure out these proverbs of wisdom.  I look forward to the mistakes I will make today to create my lessons of tomorrow.

mothers day

So I sit here and ponder; if I was to explain what a “mother” is/was/will be to an alien, what would I say?  I have a gift from God of the ability to write or speak in a way that truly affects people.  I do not have the ability to describe what a mother truly does or is or what they eventually become.  Let me give this a try.

LIFE.  Your mother gave you LIFE.  She made sacrifices beyond belief during her pregnancy.  The sickness.  The pain.  The sleepless nights.  All of this with complete selfishness and her focus on the unknown.  She gave you life and then it comes with the sacrifice of herself.  She never puts herself in a position of importance again.  She will guide you, advise you, teach you, love you, hold you, and basically alter her life in a way that puts her in the trunk of the car.  I, being single and without kids, am in awe of this ultimate act of love and kindness.

SHE ALWAYS WORRIES.  I used to get shitty with my mom for her constant worry for worry really is the focus on negative energy but I now understand that worry is also a sign of love.  Embrace the worry for someday it will not be there until we meet again.

KNOWLEDGE.  I’m 51.  I think I know it all.  I talk to my mother and I always come away with something I didn’t know or realize.  I am not as smart as I think I am and you MUST listen to your mother at all times.  She truly knows the best.  It took me a looooooong time to realize this.

Grab and hold your mother tight today.  If your mother has passed…..relish in the fact that you WILL meet again.  Today is not “just another Sunday.”  Today is Mother’s Day.  It should be a 365 days a year.  Let me close by wishing all the Mom’s out there a wonderful and happy day.  You deserve this, earned this and are appreciated more than you will ever know.  I also must add the fact that I was blessed with the “Greatest Mom In the World.”  I know that those of you reading this will dispute that but that’s part of the wonder of this day.  Mom….thank you for giving me life and your ability to look through my faults and encourage me in my times of trouble.  Happy Mother’s Day to all.